HATI KITA #Final Chapter

In case, exactly broken heart isn't totally feel bad.

It reminded me, the day when he left me, there was nothing to say. Speechless! Whats on my mind was just felt full with thousand of regrets. Was feelin' so bad on that night, I held someone in the rain and looking for a help to decrease and ease the pain. No.. no one, even its better than you, boy. 

Pray all day long, this is look like unfair. No fair! Then like an answered prayer, you back. I turned around and found you there with smile and eyes full of hope. I miss that face. You take my hand and hold me then whispered in my ear "I still love ya and never ever leave you". Honestly, this is like a dream. You really know where to start, you know it so well how to fixing a broken heart, you really know exactly what supposed to do. 

You totally cure any fool of my dreams have fallen apart. I believe God's intervention must be a plan that lead me to you. All hurts gone and just disappears when i just listen to all your words. Its like you make all the loneliness easy to bear. 

Soon the rain will stop falling, babe. I'll forget all the past. 

I was thinking and talking to myself deeply...

"Ive been heard and  frequently see many things around where some ppl are sayin' stuffs like your ex is your ex for a reason and its gonna forever just an ex, you'd never get back together w/ your ex. Sometimes, I think they're right and its sometimes true, some relationship just aren't worth savin', yes? I know a person simply might have no chance, totally got no chance of actually winning their ex back in the first place. Now if we're actually worried about that and it might be the case for me in the future. There are a few exceptions but most of the time, breakups dont actually happen cuz 2 ppl are just fundamentally wrong for one another. Usually and can relate a relationship will begin perfectly, it'll be full of passion, the couple will be madly in love, share an intimate connection and really just want to spend every moments together but then gradually I know over time things start to slide downhill but the key here is that most relationships were great in the early stages. 

I found a compatible partner I fell in love and built a close connection now that doesnt happen easily or often, so I dont just fall in love w/ anyone, I've all been on terrible first dates and I know been in  short-lived relationships that had no future, so developin an actual intimate bond w/ somebody fallin' in love, thats actually really a relatively rare things, most relationships or flings really are goin' to fizzle out long before they get to that more serious stage, I mean if findin' a soul mate was so easy and Im compatible w/ just about anyone then we'd probably all be married to the person we went on our first date. I know if that in that world nobody would be single for more than a week or 2 after a breakup, but my point here, I think is pretty clear I had great relationship w/ my ex at some point in the past. So I know tht Im compatible and I've the ability to love one another but somewhere along the way things unraveled  and the relationship went downhill.

So what if I realize I know what went wrong and I knew how to avoid it next time, I mean if I and my ex were to get a second chance at love a fresh start from scratch and this time I could get it right the first time around, then why couldn't the relationships stay healthy and lead to a happy lifetime together and so thats why I think Its really dumb to say that I know I broke up for a reason, I mean that may be true but most of the time its not actually a good reason, I know Im jealousy infidelity neediness physical distance culture disapproving family and friends, theres a ton of reasons and things that can kill a great relationship that dont really qualify as good reasons for ending the relationship sometimes the breakup can even be I know caused by a simple misunderstanding or a false rumor and none of those things are really good reasons to not get back together w/ someone who I happen to know Im already really totally compatible w/ cause Ive already had a past history and a happy relationship in the past now, of course  I cant just go back to the relationship the way its right before the breakup. 

I dont want to jump back into the same situation only to find myself heartbroken all over again when I get dumped again in a few months time but if I can start fresh if I can bring back that spark that I had early in the relationship and avoid makin the same mistakes again then Ive got a really good shot at living happily ever after and rebuilding a healthy relationships and of course if I dont try if I dont put in the effort who knows how long it'll take before I find somebody who;s equally compatible and right for me now, like I said a fresh start w/ my ex is key to rebuilding a healthy and lasting relationship the next time around. Of course if Im trying to win back my ex and I want to get back together and I dont want to find myself in the same bought heartbroken. I want to put myself in a better situation and start to rebuild a healthy future together now. Im getting my ex back may not actually be a good option. The first is basically if u never really built a real connection w/ ur ex, if the relationship never actually felt right or if there wasnt that romantic spark, basically if I just didnt have much of a relationship to begin w/ then obviously that no sense trying to win back my ex and of course my ex was it physically emotionally or verbally abusive. I mean if my ex was violent or just simply treated me like garbage then I need to walk away and dont give it a second thought another reason to not put in the effort to win back ur ex is if they've cheated on me multiple times and they appear to have no even real regret or they're not really willin' to put in the effort to change and to not do tht again in the future, most of the time cheatin' is jst a stupid mistake tht ppl only make once and that probably shouldnt stop me thinkin' about gettin' back together w/ him. But there are I know a small group of ppl out there in this world who basically just cant remain faithful and ure just settin urself up for future heartache if u get back together w/ an ex like that. The kind of I know the kind of ex thats going to be a serial cheater or have constant infidelity issues in the future relationship. 

Another reason not to get to try to get back together is if theres no real realistic way to make the relationship work in long term. See... Ive to some plants who live across the world from their partner and LDR are perfectly fine for a while but there a point where Im going to be able to physically live in the same place together at the same time and basically just relationship cant be LDR forever, so if it seems highly unlikely that I''ll ever be able to realistically permanently live together then I really need to think long and hard about whether I wnt to jump back into that kind of scenario or that kind of relationship and if this is the billionth time that I and my ex broken up, I mean I probaby know the kind of couples Im talkin' about who jst constatnly break up get back together now sometimes I might be able to break that cycle. If I keep going through the same cycle w/ ur ex breakin' up gettin' back together, consider I really ever actually had the kind of connection thats worth tryin to put in the effort to rebuild another really good way to figure out whether I should get my try to get my ex back is if I miss my relationship but not my ex. So, this is a great way to gauge to determine basically whether I get back together if Im experiencing loneliness and heartache, ask myself its cuz I miss my ex, I know my ex's personality, his appearance, his sense of humor all the little things that he did that no one else does well whether I simply miss actually just havin' a significant other in my life and as part of my life havin' a partner "

Just lets me start with a clean slate and leaves baggage of my old failed relationship in the past where it belongs now.

I dont remember the way I felt this heartache anymore. Thanks for savin' me up. I love him and live happily ever after---
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